I found this verse during Discipleship Week after my sophomore year in high school and kind of fell in love with it. It's been my favorite verse ever since then, and I actually found a shirt one day in a German restaurant in New Braunfels that had it on it which I still wear every now and then.
Lately I've been finding myself looking to God for help in my life. Life's kind of been crazy. It's been bigger...bigger than you. And you are not me. Whoops, song tangent, sorry.
Getting back on track, I've found myself taking on things that I know are bigger than me. And I know this. I'm weak. I'm human. I can't fix everything on my own. So lately, I've been turning towards God a lot for the strength to be strong for those I love. And when I started doing so, things started looking better. Then all of a sudden, I guess God decided I needed to take a step back in my life to reevaluate where I currently am. I feel really weighed down at the moment, but I know that it is in this state of heaviness, of feeling weak, that I need to rely on God even more. I know this is going to be hard, but I know that if I allow myself to trust blindly in Him and in His plans, then everything will work out as it should in the end.
Plus, I have some pretty awesome friends around me. I'm blessed to have the people in my life that I do, so I hope I didn't give off the impression that I'm wallowing in self-pity. This is going to be a rather rough patch in my life, but maybe out of it even greater things will come.
And hey, with holy week coming up, what better time to die to oneself? As St. Francis said, "It is in dying that we are born to eternal life."
Dear Lord,
Everything that is weighing on my heart, I lay it down before You.
I trust in You. Keep me attentive to Your voice, so I may discover what it is You want of me.
I know You only want what is best for me. In my vulnerability, help me to attach myself more deeply to You. I love You, Lord. I know that You love me infinitely more.
I ask that You send the gifts of fortitude and understanding to me through Your Holy Spirit. I know that I will need those especially as this new segment of my life starts.
Wherever You lead me, even if it's not in the direction that I currently desire, I know it will be what will bring the most joy to my life.
Amen.
P.S.
Thank You so much for everything and everyone that has been part of my life so far. I'm scared, but I am kind of excited to see where things will go from here.
You know, you've made me fall quite in love with that verse as well.
ReplyDeleteYou're so right about everything. Especially when you say that out of this, greater things will come. And I love the last line of your prayer. (The part before the "Amen," not the "P.S." Although I love that, too.) Quite insightful really.
No jelly beans. Always. (Or is it "never" that I should use? Since the statement is negative? Oh well. You know what I mean.) No jelly beans.